Showing posts with label Outings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Outings. Show all posts

30 December 2014

Birthday in Paris

We had a bit of a crazy year with the old birthday celebrations.  Most winters I’m ill and I’m not really in the mood for organising anything.  Then others I’m full of beans and over the top.  This year we had an actual party and we invited all of Daisy’s school class.  Lisa Lollipop joined us to entertain the children.  We tucked into Hot dogs, Popcorn, Slush Puppy and enough sweets to stock a small shop.  One of the mums brought the biggest homemade cheesecake I’ve ever seen and it was all gone by the end of the party.  Truly Scrumptious – cakes by Joanna made the most incredible Birthday cake.  It was so beautiful I didn’t want to cut it up, again it was gone by the end.  People were loading up with boxes of the delicious cake.   My friends and family were as usual, all hands on deck and the party was a roaring success.  I'd like to say thank you to everyone who made the party special and for all gifts Daisy received.  

That would have been enough for one little girl to take in, but as I mentioned, I’m a bit crazy over the top at times.  I thought it would be an idea to go to Disneyland Paris, the very next day!  I only thought about it two or three weeks before the party.  When you are sick, it's not practical to book something miles in advance.  You have to go when you feel well.  The adverts sucked me in and before I knew it, it was booked.  I’ve priced it up before and thought it was a bit expensive, but there seemed to be adverts after adverts all over the TV saying “book now and get this that and the other free”.  You know sometimes these deals are not as great as the make out, but I swear this one was good.  We were staying in a top-notch Disney Hotel, having three course meals everyday, drinks and cakes everyday and practically spent nothing because we had a complimentary voucher for most things.  I couldn't believe our luck.

Daisy loved meeting all the characters, Spiderman, Merida, Woody and Jessie, Mickey, Minnie, the Disney Princesses and of course, no Disney visit would be complete without meeting Anna and Elsa!  There were a few hairy moments at the start, namely a scary roller coaster in disguise.  I've never been so glad to get off a ride.  I swear we though it was a child's train ride, you know quite tame, but Jesus!  It was a super fast roller coaster and believe me I'm no thrill seeker.  We got into our seats, I casually rested my arm behind Daisy and within seconds it became apparent to me that arm was going to move to pin Daisy in like a seat belt.  We saw the funny side of it, while mum and I were telepathically saying all our swear words.  Daisy was shouting at the top of her voice "this is fun", she had the best time. It was a very tiring holiday for the adults however. 

So if you ever forget where you were for your 5th Birthday Daisy  Well, you woke up in a Disney hotel in Paris and had breakfast with Mickey Mouse.  Then we took the train into the centre of Paris and went up the Eiffel Tower.  I even managed to take the photo I would use on our family Christmas card.  Looking forward to our next adventure, whatever it may be.

30 September 2014

Brighton Baby - The Hen Weekend


Our family had two weddings this year and like most weddings these days the bride and groom go away for weekends, usually with friends and/or family instead of just going out for the night.  There were lots of talks about where we might go and one day it was decided we were going to Brighton.  I was very pleased as Brighton is a place I've always wanted to go but had no reason to.

We travelled down to London Gatwick with easyjet at the end of June.  Once we landed it was a short distance on the Gatwick express to the train station that would take us through to Brighton.  It’s a really easy place to get to and as we travelled with cabin bags, there was no waiting about in the airport at baggage carousels.  Arriving around lunchtime, we headed straight to the beach and into a café overlooking the sea.  The sun was shining, the sea breeze on your face, the location, the atmosphere; friends travelled from afar to celebrate.  I decided quite quickly that I would like to take Daisy one day.  


We ordered food, drinks and relaxed while chatting to one another.  It was so warm you could easily have worn a bikini and jumped into the water.  Some of the ladies were optimistic in that they packed shorts, the rest of us cursed that we should have.  I guess you get used to the Scottish climate where summer is literally days in the year rather than weeks.  With Team Gauld being a super organised bunch, our food shopping was being delivered to our rented house while we were sat there at the beach.  


Back at the house we cracked open the Prosecco and toasted the bride to be on her upcoming nuptials.  The house was then decorated with pictures of our Hen.  It's amazing the comedy gold your life long friends hold in the form of photographic evidence.

The next morning breakfast was cooked, we got on our glad rags and did our own thing before heading to the pier around lunchtime.  The plan was to have a fun and stress free weekend without the stereotypical hen activities in sight, well not in public anyway.  Eating marshmallows will never be the same again.

The Brighton Pier is a great place.  The rides are pretty scary, being right on the edge of the pier.  I went on the helter skelter and almost wished I never.  The pier had a Harry Ramsdens, ice-cream parlours, take away style counters selling noodles. I honestly could have stayed the entire week!  I know there's much more to see and do in Brighton and I was sad to leave.

On the Saturday night the girls organised a fabulous meal.  As you could imagine we could hardly contain our excitement when we found out that the brides boss had located us in Brighton and pre-ordered some bubbly for everyone!  How amazing is that!  What a cool boss.  The celebrations continued into the early hours and as you can imagine it was carnage in the morning.  Luckily myself and the brides sister, the non-drinkers, made breakfast.  



This was such a memorable weekend and I’d like to say a big thanks to all involved in the planning. 




15 September 2014

Caledonia


You’d have to be on another planet for you not to know that the people of Scotland are on the verge of a life changing historical event.  Yesterday the streets of Aberdeen were buzzing.  It looked like a scene from Braveheart.  The atmosphere was electric, the young, the old, everyone was singing and dancing and having a good time.  My camera and I even got a wee dance. 

It made me wish I liked football.  Was this the feeling people had at football matches?  It also reminded me of Hogmanay, a time when everyone is happy.
For many, national pride is in your blood; you just feel it.  I certainly can’t listen to bagpipes without getting emotional.  Och it would bring a tear to a glass eye!

I know I'm probably not alone in saying that I don't fully understand the inns and outs of the whole referendum debate.  I've even heard people saying they are voting no because they don't like Alex Salmond, which is like not buying your dream home because you don't like the wall paper.  

What I do know is things are not great as they are.  We've already got different laws compared to England, some are better here some are better there.  So when they speak about breaking the union, there are a lot of things that's broken away already.  

It feels like we've got into a situation where we've threatened to leave just like you would maybe do in a bad relationship and if you threaten to leave, and don't, you just look stupid.  If we vote no, I've no doubt we'll suffer.  I guess there is always the Unicorns farting glitter chance, that maybe the threat will make them see sense and we’ll live happily ever after.

All we can do now is wait.

27 July 2014

My Love My Life 7/12 - Water

Last month I was away to Brighton for the weekend, four days later I was jet setting again with Daisy.  I just had so much on my plate I couldn't think about blogging.  I wasn't even sure I was going to be ready for this month but our recent heat wave has made it possible to grab some photos in amongst the school holiday madness.

We went to a swimming pool that I haven't been to since I was a child.  Stonehaven Open Air Pool.  I must say my childhood memories were somewhat different to how it is now.  I recall the last time I was there.  It was a cold day, the pool was freezing and I have vague memories of shivering and being generally miserable.  When my mum mentioned it was open for the summer; I felt a wave of dread.  I also found myself snorting at the thought of Daisy having to suffer just like I did.  It's a right of passage and what every other child in the surrounding area has to endure as a youngster, I thought to myself. 

We arrived around lunchtime and Daisy soon found some friends to play with.  She even knew one of the kids from her nursery.  I swear she knows more people than me!  The children's pool gave her more independence to play on her own.  She was having a great time catching the water out of the Dolphin fountain.  She must have been in the pool for over an hour before being beckoned out for a hot dog that I bought her from the cafe.  You don't have to buy everything from the café. There are various options to consider.  I saw a few families with their own picnics.  The cafe has a service hatch at the poolside and a seated area near the entrance.  Serving burgers, hot dogs, chips, ice-cream, sandwiches and hot and cold drinks.  There's something for everyone.

The main pool is huge.  There's a water slide at the deep end, which Daisy was disappointed that she couldn't go on because she can't swim yet.  The swimming lessons are in progress so I'm sure it won't be long until the water wings are a distant memory.  They also have an inflatable assault course that spreads across the width of the pool for the kids to scramble across.  It looked like a whole bunch of fun.  Since I'm on IV antibiotics again, it gave me a chance to have a seat and soak up the atmosphere instead.

My thoughts on Stonehaven Open Air Pool now?  It was brilliant!  Lovely weather, couldn't complain.  Daisy was splashing about in the glorious sunshine just like our holiday last month.  It has certainly helped erase the old memories and created new ones.  If you are fairly local and haven't yet been you must, or if like me you have bad memories from childhood you need to revisit.  If you get the nice weather I promise you will not be disappointed.

Don't forget to pop over and read the blog from Karen of K Lou Photography.  Here she talks about childhood memories and shows you the best things in life are free.


23 February 2014

My Love My Life 2/12 - Energy

I joined this new project last month called My Love My Life.  It's a new blogging cirle with some Professional photographers, who often so busy with work they never get around to capturing family photos of their own.  Probably a reason they started out in Photography in the first place.  I'm a bit like the odd one out because all I do is document Daisy's life.  They invited me in after the Letter's to my Daughter circle dried up. It's a similar thing really, just different branding.  The idea is that once a month they take time out with their family and rekindle the love that got them into Photography.

It's not often I get to spend the weekend with my daughter so when the opportunity presented itself, I grabbed it with both hands.  Had this unusually free weekend landed weeks earlier, I'm not sure how much fun we would've had because I haven't been feeling that great recently.  My doctor has been very concerned about my health and said I’ve taken a dramatic nosedive, which for him was just too rapid a decline for CF and he needed to get to the source of the problem and fast.  We discussed various pressing issues I’m dealing with and my voice wobbled.  I tried to hold it together, but as the questions were fired at me I cried, he knows if I cry I’m not coping.  I sighed and gave an absolute belter of an analogy that I literally just made up.  I told the Prof it’s a bit like having a dead body in the house, you can hide it in a room but the smell is still there.  They all burst out laughing, it was one of those appointments where the room was full of people, Dr, Student, Nurse all in attendance, another reason why I don’t want to cry.  I worry about scaring the students with my overly dramatic "Jeremy Kyle style" part of my life, that's outwith my control. Afterwards the nurse said “this is real life and they need to learn that”.  Anyway, the doctor said he is going to start using my analogy and after knowing him fourteen years, I believe him.    I didn’t realise how funny it all sounded.  He decided to put me on a short course of steroids, which I was a little weary of at first.  I trust him completely though and by the time the valentine holiday weekend was here, I was one week into the course and had super human mummy powers!  No wonder some athletes scoff steroids, I was absolutely buzzing with energy.

No school Friday, Monday and Tuesday, so plenty time for lots of fun activities with my favourite little person.  Our first adventure of the weekend was a trip to Stonehaven, which is a lovely coastal village fifteen miles south of where we stay in Aberdeen.  It was a fairly mild day but snow was forecast for 3pm so we needed to get out and back at a reasonable hour just in case the weather turned nasty.  Stonehaven or Stoney to locals, is picture perfect.  It's a place I used to go as a kid in the summertime, back then they had a lot more facilities for kids.  It’s a shame how they don’t preserve certain attractions.  Saying that, the old outdoor swimming pool is still going strong.  Just about everyone has been in it once and lived to tell the tale and I'm hoping to take Daisy one day as a right of passage really, but she needs to get some meat on her bones first because it will no doubt be freezing.  We were wrapped up warm and I wished I'd put some extra socks on my little friend, I forgot and felt a little guilty.  Mind you it didn't stop the enjoyment of a walk in the fresh sea air.  We collected driftwood for Nanny and some seashells.  Poppy our dog was in her element digging and collecting stones for herself; a trait she has had since she was a puppy.  We walked up to the harbour and spoke to a couple of men who were fishing, Daisy was desperate to see a fish and I told her we would go fishing one day.  I said I’m sure that’s something Granda might like to come along to.  We then had a bite to eat in a place called The Ship Inn, which is always a pleasure.  Before heading home I popped into a traditional sweet shop and picked us up some yummy sweets for in the car on the way home.  That was our Valentine’s Day.  Nothing beats spending time with the people that mean the most to you.
The next day we were up and out early because we were going Horse Riding!  Since getting her beloved Rocking Horse for Christmas Daisy has been desperate to try a real horse.  We have a local riding centre so it was really easy to organise.  It was a chilly morning so I put Daisy’s ski suit on and she looked real cosy.  I was half expecting her to be afraid when we got to the riding centre, but she wasn’t.  While we were waiting we had a look around the stables and met some of the other horses.  Stanley was very friendly and he was huge.  The stable girls arrived with a medium sized black horse and said his name was Sam.  Daisy chatted the whole time to the girls that took her out riding.  They walked though the forest, jumped over fallen trees and told her about the magic tree deep in the forest and that when her horse Sam walked though it, she had to make a wish.  All very exciting as you can imagine for a four year old.  Afterwards we saw a horse with sore legs getting off his bandages and having cream applied to his wounds.  Daisy didn’t want to go home and asked if she could go on again.  I promised that we would go back another day.  She told me she didn’t want anyone else go on her horse Sam, he’s her horse.

The following day, we woke up to a bright spring morning, not the warmest of days but the sun was shining and it was a beautiful day.  We threw the Radioflyer trike into the car and off we went; to the park.  I couldn’t believe how cold it was, our weather here is so tricky to call.  I quickly found myself trying to persuade Daisy to come to the cafe but almost wished I never.  I have no idea how mums out with children on their own manage to navigate their way around getting food, paying, finding tables and keeping control of the children.  It went a bit like this, I find a table, tell her to go sit at it, join the queue for food.  She starts messing about, she falls off the chair and onto the floor and suddenly you know everyone is thinking, “where is that child’s Mother”!? and I’m like, I’m here in the queue trying to get bloody food.  I feel so stressed because people are oblivious that I’m unable to coerce Daisy into staying beside me, order, pay, carry a bag and hold a tray of food while looking for somewhere to sit.  It’s physically impossible, my body can’t do it; a stark reminder of how my independence is compromised by my health.  It’s not Daisy’s fault, she’s still young and real free spirit but at times I just want to scream and say if you won’t behave we can’t go out alone.  I struggled on, if the queue wasn’t so long it would’ve certainly helped.  You live and learn.  I ordered Cola, Cake and Hot Chocolate, we waited an age for our hot food and thankfully I managed to engage Daisy with my new camera lens.  We had a blast.  She decided she was going to pull lots of different funny faces and we both giggled looking at them after each shot.

This month I am linking to Tracy of Tracy Williams Photgraphy, be sure to check out her blog.




15 February 2014

LOVE

It's Valentines weekend and in a short space of time we have been exposed to the vast array of gifts received by loved ones, spread over the social networks quicker than a case of genital herpes; I find my eyes roll.  Of course my feelings on Love are somewhat warped, yes I am a seasoned love cynic.  Love has destroyed me somewhat.  What does Love mean to you?  For me it’s about mutual respect and trust.  Love is something we feel for someone or something and can even be described as a chemical reaction in the brain.  Some may confuse love with other feelings, like lust, which will most certainly return to haunt you.

Growing up I always felt loved by my parents, grandparents and friends.  We were not really a tactile family, but just because some don’t express love with words doesn’t mean they don’t love you.  The same as some people can throw out empty words but don’t really mean it. It’s not always about how much you say it, but more how much you prove it’s true.  Like everyone else I feared rejection and was conscious that my health was maybe an issue for some.  However I tried not to dwell on it too much, nobody knows how long they have on this earth. Don't get me wrong, like all other teenagers I partied, danced and had boyfriends but at the same time I felt like it was a race to get married and settle down always thinking about that ticking time bomb.  I didn’t take many risks always fearing for my health.  Like other girls I dreamt about marriage and the happy ever after. I wanted the normal life, however even how normal I pretended life was, my life was not normal.  As I got older and the prognosis for CF patients increased I thought that I maybe had a shot at happiness if I met the right person. 

My first serious boyfriend was when I was sixteen, he was a bit older than me and I thought we were right for each other, but we were more like friends. He was a graduate in business and being young and naive I thought I was aiming high.  He used to make me love song compilation tapes for Valentines Day and I'm feeling old even saying that.  You would be mistaken to think he was the romantic type, he wasn't.  In fact he was what Scots refer to as "tight" and would not have bought anything unless absolutely necessary.  Yes we had the same music taste and the tape was appreciated, but within days you'd find that tape in his car stereo or Walkman.  His mother wasn’t all that keen on me, I think she thought I was lower class and being ill I would need looked after rather than the other way around with me running after her sons ass.  We lasted five years together but with hindsight, I really should have pulled the plug years earlier.

I did meet my Mr Right and for the first couple of years my life felt perfect.   As you all know we waited a long time to have our daughter and she was finally born five years into our marriage.  I often worried how long I would have with them and I thought about how our life together would come to a tragic and premature end.  I still have good memories of the early days and presents I got from him.  One in particular sticks out because it felt like it was bought with real compassion.  He wanted to buy me a gift and asked what I would like, to his surprise I said a condenser tumble dryer and later that day we went to John Lewis and I picked my sparkly new toy.  I still have it!  I openly admit I'm a difficult one to buy for.  Having always had my own money, if I wanted something chances are I'll have bought it before anyone else did.  In the latter stages of our relationship I would pick and purchase my own gifts out the joint bank account and I'm sure there's a lot out there that do the same.  Does it mean they don't love you, probably not.  When we are submerged in day-to-day stresses of family life, Valentines Day can get shelved.  Some would argue it's exploitation of a commercial nature to make people go out and spend money on certain things.  To me, it is an important occasion, as is Christmas and for no effort to be made towards you, it can feel like there is something wrong in the relationship.  You should know your partner enough to appreciate if the gesture of Valentine’s Day is important to them.  That doesn't always mean flashy gifts, but flashy suited me with my inherited rather expensive taste.  In fact it meant I would have no qualms reciprocating the flashy gifts.  I saw it as an investment into the relationship and didn't care too much about the price of stuff.  If you want it you want it right, life is too short and no one knows that more than me.  I came so close on various occasions to buying my man his latest dream car or even his own caravan.  I thought about the look on his face when he woke up and looked out our bedroom window, imagining the big bow I would put around it and if I could manage to do it without raising suspicion.   Then I'd come back down to reality and remember how I used to be in love and how he stewed his goose. 

I had very strong views about Love and family life and I wanted to be part of a big family, a normal family.  A family who shared the same core values.  I knew my health would not allow me to bear many children and so it was important for me to feel like I had a place in the home of my extended family and be treated with respect and valued as my husbands wife and chosen life partner.  As a family unit we are a team and no one is more valuable than the other.  I viewed my household equal and my love for my husband was the same as my love for our daughter, but some people don’t think like that.  I highly recommend love, but it's a two-way thing and needs work.  I don't think I realised that in the early days.  I guess I thought once the feelings were there and the marriage certificate was in the bag it was a done deal; until death do us part.  What I will take with me in the future is that in order to be compatible with your boyfriend, you must also fit in with their family.  I played Love safe at times and didn’t take risks but when I did, I took risks that I know I shouldn’t have.  People have questioned that maybe things didn’t work out because of my health, thinking the fear of the unknown was too much to bear.  I do know my mental health was considerably strained at times with various issues outwith my control and it was hard to keep it altogether.  I told someone recently that I believed emotional turmoil can be damaging to physical health and turns out I was right.  But, I am made of strong stuff and I live to fight another day. Unfortunately circumstances can change in the blink of an eye, one silly mistake and the rug can quickly be pulled from under your feet. Don’t let it happen to you.  They say never feel sad about someone who gave up on you, feel sorry for them because they gave up on someone who would've never given up on them.  Sometimes you don't know what you've got until it's gone so love with all your heart, be kind to each other and above all else be honest. 






24 November 2013

Letter to Daisy - Happy Birthday

It’s your birthday in the next few days and instead of my usual advice for the future, I thought I’d record what you are like just now.  Hopefully so that you can look back on this time and laugh that your craziness started early and that as well as behaviour being learnt, it can also be genetic.


My Miracle Flower,

Well my baby, you are about to turn FOUR and it feels like a lifetime ago that you were that, a baby.  I wish I could have some of those precious moments back because they pass so quick and it seems that in the blink of an eye, life can change forever.  I am so glad I have videos of you as a baby that I can look back on; those early videos are even more precious to me than the photos I have taken and collected over the past four years.  Although at times you can be hard work, I love the strength of your personality and I find it really funny how similar we are.  I still dress you, yes I know some people will think it’s bad and that I should be encouraging independence.  I always feel a little awkward when mums at nursery are instructing their children to change into their indoor shoes all by themselves and I am doing yours as you sit nattering about what you’ve been doing that morning, but I don’t care.  I grew up being very independent but you know what, it’s nice to get things done for you and I want to do it.  Recently we watched some home movies of me when I was your age and we’re like two peas in a pod.  Like me you are a creature of habit and do not like change.  There are times when I think you’re verging on having OCD and an example of this would be on how I prepare bread and butter for you.  You eat a lot of bread and butter and would probably be quite happy if that’s all you had to eat ever again.  That’s why I always buy a healthy Low GI bread from our local baker JG Ross, at a cost of just over £2.  Two pounds for a loaf of bread I hear you say, yes I know it’s rather expensive but I promise you it’s the best bread ever!  Anyway, I must spread the butter evenly and to the edge of each crust.  I then ask if you would like the bread folded, you reply yes.  Then I mark the butter with my knife, down the middle of the slice and hold the knife in the bread as I fold over with the other hand.  If I do this in any other order or if I go to fast without asking the question “do you want it folded” or heaven forbid I cut the bread in half, all hell will break loose!  Other foods you like just now are sausages, pasta and anything chocolate.  You like to drink hot chocolate all the time AND you like it in a baby bottle!

You have a few key dislikes, one of which is getting your hair washed.  Every time a bath is suggested you ask the question “are you going to wash my hair” and it’s clear you are relieved when I say no.  You are also equally upset with the prospect of getting your hair brushed or teeth cleaned.  I’ve taken note and bought a special Tangle Teaser brush for the hair and I have resorted to making the teeth brushing a race.  With your competitive spirit, it rarely fails and I tell you that your teeth are so shiny that I need my sunglasses on; works wonders.  You hate having long sleeves and insist on all sleeves on all long tops, to be rolled up.  Completely ridiculous at times, but that's you.  I know people wont believe it but it really is a struggle to get photos with my very own model, you don’t have a lot of patience in front of the camera and you were only keen on the birthday photos with the promise of a new toy afterwards!  The last one, you don’t do early breakfast but I can understand that as I too rarely eat breakfast.

You have quite an active social life, Ballet class is once a week and you love getting dressed up and playing with the girls in your class.  The teacher is so lovely and you often hold her hand wanting her to be your partner during class.  You started Kinder gym when you were 18-months old and now you are in the next class up called Gym Joey,  these classes are specifically designed as a  stepping-stone into the world of Gymnastics.  Nursery takes up a lot of your week and it’s hard for you to adapt because you still go to two different ones.  “Normal nursery” is very relaxed, you cuddle the staff, go out for walks and play with friends.  Your best friend is called Ewan, a loving little boy who is eagerly waiting your arrival on the only day of the week where you are both in together.  The staff without a doubt will report back that you two were inseparable all afternoon.   I really hope you don't lose contact with him when you go to school next year.  School nursery is fairly strict and you find it hard to understand why the school nursery teachers are not so keen to give hugs.  You tell me at least once a week that your friend here is Lily and that she often makes a picture for you.  You both held each other’s hands when you performed nursery rhymes in front of the parents earlier this month as part of a challenge for Children in Need.

You don’t ask for many things, in fact your favourite toy is a supermarket Nativity set that cost five pounds.  You love a bit of role-play and so Mary and Joseph are more commonly known as the Mummy and Daddy.  I don’t tend to buy lots of toys throughout the year so Christmas and birthday’s is the times where we stock up.  We haven’t talked much about what you would like to get for your birthday.  When mummy asks what you’d like, you say, a Fairy fly and a scooter (ones with two wheels at the front).  You like a good story and this is where Daddy comes in, he’s full of stories!  I think you get your imagination from him.  You go through phases with books, we have a whole bookcase full of them and your chaise longue is right beside it, it’s like our own little library corner!  Your favourite song is "what does the fox say" and you also like Miley Cyrus's song "wrecking ball", completely inappropriate!

Daisy you are a fun loving child and people wont forget you easily.  You’re a real character and a great sense of humour is yet to fully develop, but it’s coming.  We were falling about laughing “Peppa Pig style” when you tried to introduce my Mum and Dad to each other; like they’ve never met.  You said “nanny, this is my Granda, have you met him before”?

Happy Birthday,


Mummy

xx




Video from the archives




27 October 2013

Letter to Daisy - Girl's Got Guts


We went on a bit of a road trip for a few days over the holidays and it got me thinking about Gut Instincts, because I didn't seem to have any when it came to navigation!  I left the sat nav at home, I knew it was wrong but I ignored the voice in my head saying go back in the house and get it. Struggling with the crappy signal and google maps on my phone we got to where we needed to be in the end, but life could've been so much easier.


My Miracle Flower,

Gut instinct is a thing you should never ignore and it’s helped me out on countless occasions.  It’s called gut instinct because of the feeling you get at the pit of your stomach that makes you feel a little queasy, like you could be sick.  I’ve been told that some of my voiced instincts are like a sixth sense, almost likened with Witch Craft! Of course, that is a piece of nonsense.  I actually struggle with gut instincts and think at times they are non-existent in me or maybe it’s that I am unable to read them correctly.  Although it’s helped me in many situations, it’s equally caused me trouble.  If I had managed to read the signs correctly in tricky situations, it may have saved me a considerable amount of time and energy with people who were frankly not worth bothering about.  What I’m saying is, it’s easy to ignore that feelings that we all have when something seems a bit odd.  The consequence of not listening to your gut may be that you end up experiencing another feeling, called Regret!

Gut instinct can be used in many areas of your life, e.g. health, wealth, travel, work and relationships.  Some people may experience bad health, however the signs are maybe not there to justify a trip to the doctor, but there are certain types of people out there that would just know something is wrong and will take themselves to the doctors anyway.   I bet if those people who ended up in their doctors surgery listening to some bad news looked back, would they manage to pin point the actual time they maybe should have acted; who knows.  Did their gut tell them something was wrong and did they perhaps ignore it.  I believe that there are always clues around us to support gut instinct and this is why you should face problems head on and not stick your head in the sand.  Just because you ignore a problem, it won't make it go away. 

I’ve experienced similar feelings with relationships and know I’ve disregarded important gut feelings and acted on wrong ones because I’ve let emotion cloud my judgement.  The hardest decision you will ever make is whether to walk away or try harder.  Everyone has to make their own mistakes in life, I agree, this is how we learn.  Remember this though; nothing you do will ever be so bad that it can’t be fixed.  There is always a way and yes it might be hard but I will help you.  As you get older the mistakes you make can sometimes have catastrophic consequences, so listen to your Mother, sometimes you just have to trust us old people because we’ve been there before and have made similar mistakes.



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